Jobs and better Jobs

Every Sunday at church we stand and make a declaration about the things we are believing God will do for us. I believe with all my heart that God will do these things. This past week before our declaration they asked all who were believing for jobs or better jobs to raise their hand to receive prayer. I was one of the many who raised a hand to receive prayer. Now I ask all my friends to stand in agreement with me that God will provide a better job for me. I don't want to sound ungrateful for what I have but....
To better understand my desire for a better job you must take a glimpse at what I deal with every day.
I didn't always hate my job. When I got the job 5 years ago I was so happy. I was hired by my son's grandmother as a file clerk. I worked three days a week for $7.00 a hour. This was great for me at the time. A month later I was asked to come on full time due to the amount of work to be done. I was still happy since I could bring my kids to the office with me.
After six months I was moved up to head of the accounts payable and was given a $.50 a hour raise. Soon after that me and the kids moved from Clyde to Abilene to be closer to work and to live in one of my bosses rent houses. It was great.
Fast forward to now.. I now am the only person in the office i run the the accounts payable, accounts receivables, answer the phones, assist in purchasing, do cost management...ect..ect..
If it needs to be done I have to do it. And I am still making $7.50 a hour. Yes 5 years no pay raise. And that's not even the bad part.
The office I work in is horrid. Its filthy dirty. Trash everywhere. paper and food stacked everywhere. My boss has a pet bird that flies around the office and messes on everything.

I love the work, Love working in accounting. Its the people I have to work for that are getting to me. The office manager treats me like I am less of a person than him. The owner is so absent minded that she doesn't finish anything, and being she is my son's grandmother she feels she has a say in every part of my life. To make it worse the are none believers. I sit and listen to foul jokes and underhanded remarks about "pew jumping religious freak" like me.

I know that God has so much more in store for me. Please keep me in your prayers and stand in agreement with me that there is a better job for me. A place where I can glorify God in everything I do.

8 Things

Ok I will play along ( thanks Mom)



8 Things I Am Looking Forward To



1. Spending the rest of my life with my wonderful Husband

2. taking a family vacation

3. seeing my brother graduate college

4. planting my flower garden in the front of my house

5. planning weddings and more parties

6. joining the ymca so I can take some arobic classes

7. Starting a relationship with my beautiful step daughter

8. working more with my Mom on her photography



8 Things I Wish I Could Do



1. have a deck built on to the back of my house

2. go back to school

3. be a stay at home wife and mother

4. build a relationship with my birth father

5. spend more time with my family ( extended)

6. go visit my cousin in north carolina

7. Go to Bethel in Redding

8. find my true calling in life



8 Shows I am Currently Watching



1. CSI New York

2. Without a Trace

3. Extream home makover

4. Numbers

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trip to Dallas

Ok I know I haven't posted in a long time things have been so crazy since we got married. Between work and kids and adjusting to life.....CRAZY.
Me and Jeff took our first trip together. I must say I was a little nervous about going. We spent two days in the Dallas area. He had to tie up some loose ends from when he lived up there. We went to his old home town, The Colony, I was introduced to his friends...ahhh. We spent some time with my brother in-law and his family, They are the greatest. Jeff took me shopping. I got to go to Sam Moon and Ikea for the first time in my life , and I loved it. Then we made our way to meet up with his daughter. Kennedy is a beautiful 16 year old who I was so nervous about meeting. See Jeff's wife and Kennedy's mother passed away almost 5 years ago and Kennedy is not to excited about me. Well she showed it very well. When we got there she saw me in the car and walked away. Jeff went after her they talked for a few minutes and we left. I must say my heart was broken. She wouldn't even meet me. Jeff being the sweetheart he is tryed to make it better and kept telling me she was just acting like a brat, but it still hurt. I love Jeff with all my heart and I want to love her but she is not willing to give me any kind of chance. I guess I will have to try again another time, sooner or later she will have to meet me I am married to her dad. PLEASE PRAY FOR US.

Final count down

It is 2 days till the wedding or 50 hours if you like to feel the pressure. I am so excited to start our lives together. I feel like for the first time in my life I know where I belong. At my shower Sunday, Kathy asked " what is it that makes a bride to be glow" Several answered love, happiness, excitement all good answers but for me I think the " Bridal Glow" is coming from an anointing from God that I am finally stepping into the light of my destiny. And being Jeff's wife is a major part of who God created me to be.
And just for Pam ( this is my last blog as a single woman)

Turn Around

Thank you all for your prayer. Thing have turned around for us. Jeff was offered a good job last night. My little Jacob was very ill this week was even in the hospital for a while but is now feeling much better and even went to school this morning. And I received my tax return. So we are going to be able to go this weekend and put a down payment on a car and start getting the things for the wedding, which by the way I have been able to reduce the cost by almost $400. Just goes to show I have the best group of praying friend God has ever blessed anyone with.
I love you all.

BUMP IN THE ROAD/ BELIEVING FOR INTERVENTION

Thing have been going great. Jeff and I had our first pre-marriage counseling session and Brandon only wants to see us one more time before the wedding. My wedding dress came in and is amazing. My Dad paid for my dress ( such a blessing). We were scheduled to sign papers on a new/used car this weekend ( most know I have been without a car for a year now, my boss has been letting me use the company truck,She has been a big blessing), we have lined out everything to set down and order all the wedding stuff. Then .......................Big bump in the road.
The IRS is a week behind in sending out returns ( I can handle this) Then Jeff calls, he has been laid off from his job along with several others. He was able to find something part time, but without a full time job there is no way we can handle the car payment. So I feel like I have to make a choice. See I can buy a used car ( cheap) which I a have to or I can have a wedding, but for now there is no way we can afford both. I know what I need to do but my heart breaks at the thought of calling off my wedding but we can always go to the JP and get married the wedding was just for me. I PRAY for divine intervention and that GOD provide a way for my needs and my desires to both be met. I hope all of you will pray with me and believe this will happen.

60 DAYS

Well we are 60 days away from the wedding. And starting to feel a little overwhelmed. We have made a lot of progress in planning. We have a place to get married, We have picked the flowers, the wedding dress, found someone to make the cakes. I have the room decorations all laid out in my mind. We start our counseling with Brandon on the 25Th.( Just pray there are no bumps in the road with that). Now we are just waiting on the money. And I am starting to get impatient. I need to file my taxes to get the money to pay for everything and my boss hasn't even started the w-2's yet. I hate having to wait on someone else to get what I need, and my boss gets in no hurry to do anything, if she knows she has till the 31st she will wait till the 30Th to start.
On a happier note we had Mom take our engagement pic Sunday and I think the are going to be great.

OK we have made a few decisions on the wedding and I thought I would get some feed back on the choices that we have made. First is the date March 14Th 2009. Next is location, KLF downtown ( I am calling tomorrow to make sure we can have it on that date). Then the colors tangerine and yellow.


Then we have the flowers:

The cake:

Bridesmaid dress:

bridesmaid in tangerine and maid-of-honor in yellow

Jeff's ring:

The wedding dress:

There are still a million things to do and plan but we are making head way.

2008: What a Year

Just to follow everyone else I thought I would post some events from this year. It has been a year of ups and downs, heart breaks and joy. I have been blessed through it all.

January: Me and Frank were together raising kids living life.
March: Frank leave and a time of heart ache starts
April: Ashley turns 12 with a big swimming party
June: kids go away for the summer
July: thow a birthday party for my Dad
August: me and Ashley go to our yearly rock the desert concert ( two days of great music and one on one time with my daughter)
September: another School year starts, I go into the hospital for a hysterectomy, throw a baby shower for sweet Jessica
October:met Wayne who became one of the best friends I have ever had and have a wonderful halloween
November: Sweet Jacob turns 7 have a amazing thanksgiving, am blessed to spend time with my grandparents and my two brothers, 31st met Jeff Lynch at church
December: watch my beautiful daughter play violin with the all city orch. spend every moment with Jeff. Attended a few Christmas parties. GOT ENGAGED, had a peaceful Christmas.
Looking forward to a wonderful New Year, planning a wedding, and starting my life as Jeff's wife.
This has been a wonderful year.
May God blessings multiply on everyone in 2009.

Jeff popped the question......
and I said yes. I know its fast but it has been right since day 1.

Getting ready for Christmas

This weekend Me and Ashley decorated the house for Christmas. Now I just need to put some presents under the tree.



outside of the house, not a great picture but you can get the idea of what it looks like

my front porch . the little tree is the kids tree

nativity scene on the top of the fireplace, done by Ashley

Stockings hung be the fireplace( even if it is a fake fireplace)

my tree

my Coffee table

Me and my Daughter

A few weeks ago my very talented Mother took some pics of me and my beautiful daughter. Thought I would share a few of the pictures. Thank you Mom, I love them.

home inprovement

OK so the home improvement bug bit me and I decided that it was time to do a few changes around the house, so over the last few days I started in my living room. I now have a red wall (which I have always wanted) and I installed my grandmothers old electric fireplace in the room. Here are a few pics of what my living room looks like now. next it is on the the kitchen.

Venting session

Ok so I have something that has been bothering me for some time now and I figure that I will go ahead and get it off my chest while I can still claim post surgery insanity if anyone gets offended. So If I step on any toes I am sorry but we are all here to share our thoughts and feelings.
Most of my friends on here ( who will be reading this) all go to the same church. Which I must say is the most amazing church ever. There is so much freedom in our church. We are growing in leaps and bounds and watching God move in the lives of all the new Christians is such a blessing to watch. Now for my grip ( which will make me sound like an old person) I feel many have lost or never known how to respect others. Every Sunday its the same thing, and by all means I am not excluding my own family, We go into worship and it starts to feel like a social club. People are up and down in and out letting their kids run all over the place. Talking about everything but what we are there for. You see a friend sneak in late you get up and cross the church and talk to them for five or ten minutes with no regard the to people around you. I reached my breaking point this last Sunday. My kids each got up and left three times the group behind me were chatting about what they had done over the weekend and the ones next to them were discussing what they were doing after church. OK so I am trying to block it all out and push into the presents of God but there was no having it. I take both my kids out and discipline them. Go back in and my sweet little nieces are running up and down the isle. I go get them and make them sit down then look around to see that alot of people around me are acting the same way I just punished my children for acting. Disgusted I just left church. I don't think you should have to force your way into the presents of God. It is something that comes so natural when in the right enviorment. I know we are a young church and we are very open to worshiping freely but I feel we need to go back and instill a value of respect for others. Respect the ones around you trying to worship and receive if you need to talk take it outside, take care of your business before church starts, yes we offer coffee and drinks but should we leave service two and three time for a refill, I think that is an abusive of the privlage. And just so you know after I left and came home my two kids were punished with four hours of house and yard work plus a discussion on respecting others and how to behave while in church.
ok now I feel better and like I said if this offends anyone I am sorry

wild kingdom

Ok so I made it through the flies and the misquitos. Then there was the invasion of roof rats in August but enough is enough if I have to take a shower with this little guy one more night I am going to scream.

Not to mention all his friends that are all over my front porch.

Time for an update

Well here it is the end of August and it is hard to believe how fast this summer has gone by. It has been a great summer for me and my kids. The kids both went on a month long vacation ( I stayed home and worked). We made a few trips to the lake. Me and my daughter attended Rock the Desert. Many family movie nights. We spent a lot of time just reconnecting as a family, which was much needed after everything we had been through.
I have been dealing with some health issues. I was diagnosed with cystic ovarian disease and a word I am not even going to attempt that means that my uterus was hemorrhaging. My doctor tried hormones to try and control it but it has just gotten worse so yesterday I was told my only option is a hysterectomy. Bad news is that my uterus is tilted at an odd angle so it has to be done through the abdomen. I am actually very OK with this. I do have a few concerns First is the financial co pays, hospital stay for 3-5 days, time missed at work. After finding out about the surgery I came to the office to let my boss know what was happening and all I got was " this is going to be a real inconvenience for the office" and " Just how long to you plan on being gone". I was very hurt and now feel this overwhelming need to come back to work just as soon as I can. Which I was already feeling a little knowing I have no sick time or vacation time to use during all this.
Mom has agreed to help with the kids. and to stay at the hospital with me. She is so awesome.
So remember me on September 16Th ( that is surgery day)
Love you All

old song

Sometimes when things get hard it helps me to fall back on old familiar thing in my life to comfort me. Here is one of my favorite songs done in the most beautiful ways I think I have ever heard it.

Where I have been this past year

Mom took some new pics

Hey everyone Mom took me out over the weekend and took some new Pics of me. Hope you like them. She is so talented.

Still hanging in there

I am still hanging in there. I know it has been awhile since my last blog. But not much has changed. My kids are great, ready for school to be out. Ashley received three awards at school. I am so proud of her. Jacob will be going in the first grade next year and he will be in the ap class.
Me, well I have my good days and my bad days. Today is a not so good one. I am trying really hard to move on with my life one day at a time. My heart is still very sad. Frank got himself in trouble with all he was doing to me and I didn't hear from him for a week and it felt so good. But that has changed and we are back to everytime the phone rings or I get a message on the cell my heart sinks into my stomache. Moving on is so hard. I thought about getting some counceling, I even asked the church for help but they were to "busy", and I guess you can say that its a pride issue but when they finally decided to get around to me almost 9 weeks later I didn't do it. Frank made me feel worthless and less than human and they made me feel so unimportant. I am trying to deal with it and I know I will get past it.